As I woke up in the hospital bed post surgery, after crashing my
motorcycle the day before, I felt it in my CORE. No, it was not pain
I felt. It was calmness and belonging. There is no way for me to
describe this feeling of simply knowing. This was a different kind
of waking up. I simply knew nothing would ever be the same and
at the same time I knew amazing things were coming. I had no idea
how, but I just knew. Nothing I do from this moment on will ever be
the same. Body broken and stitched up from the crash, heart still in
the “Is this really happening?” mode after a beautiful relationship
of 14 years has fallen apart recently and I was now divorced, pride
all bruised up after being laid off from a leadership position with
one of the major health insurance companies, the culmination of
a successful 16 year old healthcare career. All just months before. What a
sequence of events! My whole world, everything I have known,
everything I have been for a very long time, everything I have
done, now was gone. Still, I was alive. I was here! I was awake. I
was wide awake! I remembered the kid I was in the 90s growing
up in Sarajevo. A soul that survived the longest siege in the history
of modern warfare. Young adult, forced to grow up really fast
surviving snipers and shelling on a daily basis. A refugee in my
own home town, as my home was under the occupied territory.
I was a person that lived through years of no electricity, no gas,
no water, no food, all in an active war zone. Everything I had known, everything I had been, it was all gone. A soul that
after living through and surviving this hell on earth called war,
went to the United States to learn, to get knowledge and to apply
that knowledge and create a better life. To live my American dream. Now that is power. I
gave back. I volunteered and because of it, I was given a chance to
create a better world for self and everyone around.
I had unfortunately forgotten about this beautiful soul, after being
lulled into this false sense of security living my "American dream". I had it all. At least on paper. I was in a happy marriage, had an amazing career in
healthcare, owned a home, money was never an issue. I traveled
the world and visited over 20 countries and I was lucky enough to
be calling one of the most beautiful places on earth, San Francisco,
home. Gradually it was all falling apart and finally it all crashed.
Crashed literally as my Triumph went down with me on it.
As I was enjoying this interesting new feeling of faith, of belonging,
of calmness, at no point did this question cross my mind: “Why did
this happen to me?” If it did, I did not engage it or follow its path. I was not interested
in why. I was here, I was alive, why was not important to me.
Questions that came to my mind were: Who am I? Who do I want
to be? What will I do to get there? How can I give back again? How
will I help myself and how will I help others? How do I realign
with my CORE being? How do I wake up the amazing, beautiful,
creative child inside of me and create a new world? Better world
for myself and everyone else that rewards me with sharing their
time and space with me. I felt it in my soul, big things are coming,
change that I will drive and change that will be delivered through
me is coming. In my wildest dreams I could not have imagined,
lying on that bed and taking an infusion intravenously, that
12 months later I will be a successful real-estate owner and an
investor, an entrepreneur running multiple online
businesses. That I will be a strategic interventionist, a graduate of
Tony Robbins and Cloe Madanes school and a certified life coach,
a student of some great mentors and a teacher to some amazing souls. An author, an International Best Seller.
Most importantly joyful, happy,
healthy, curious, loving, kind soul, I always was, contributing
beyond myself, here to remind people to slow down, to reduce the noise, to listen.
It all started with me. Within me. Internally. I knew this was an inside job. A better world is created inside out. It all started with choosing the questions I wanted answered. I wanted to understand, “Now what?” I understood I cannot do things in order to become something, in order to be something. I felt it in my CORE I have to first BE and from this beautiful place of being, anything I do would be simply amazing and it would be ME. I knew I had to learn. I knew I had to, most importantly, evaluate my habits and create new ones. I simply knew and understood first of all I have to SLOW DOWN. I also simply believed in my CORE that I have to REDUCE THE NOISE around me. Family, friends, media, surroundings, I had to quiet it all down. I started walking. It was at first just to slow down. I remember the days where I would walk and the noise inside my head would be louder than the noise outside. I kept on walking and believing. I had faith and I knew nature is on my side. I understood something bigger is happening. I understood I was wide awake and I am in the process of realigning with my soul, with my path. This is where the fun of creation begun for me. I slowed down and I reduced the noise. I wanted to learn. I decided to listen. I was ready to teach.
Amazing things are here, amazing things are coming!